The First Bubble

This is definitely not the "first", few years ago I have been creating several blogs here and there, trying to be so outspoken, so deep, so articulate. I suddenly grew tired of it, probably because I know deep down inside it's all just a show and that there is a point where all of the things that I'm trying to say are just a masquerade of what I want others to see. I am a Fraud.

Sometimes its hard to be the person you wish you could be and at the same time be someone who is happy with himself/herself. There is always this need to conform, to act like someone in order to feel like somehow you belong. This is my greatest mistake, I always pretend and just follow their flow. I let someone who loved and accepted me for who I am go because I deemed our relationship weird/unacceptable and pathetic and be with this people who see me indifferently. I was so lost back then, I kept my mouth shut, I'm not alone yet I'm so lonely.

Time goes by, people leave, people change. I left my old self to start anew, this time with more confidence and honesty. I don't care if I live under continuous scrutiny, I'm gonna be happy and be an inspiration to someone somehow. With this I blog, I would like to share my life, that is if i can keep it up.  xoxo