One

One love

One blood

One life

You got to do what you should

One life

With each other

Sisters

Brothers

One life

But we're not the same

We get to

Carry each other

Carry each other

One

I remember a quote from one of my favorite book Mitch Albom's The Five People You Meet in Heaven it says:

"...there are no random acts. That we are all connected. That you can no more separate one life from another than you can separate a breeze from the wind."

It's amazing to think how our lives can somehow affect other people's lives, good or bad without knowing it. I know most of the time we only think about ourselves and seldom did we try to look beyond our perspective. In my profession I learn not only how to give sympathy but also to stand in someone else’s feet "bookish". Every day I encounter different people with different stories, each of them had their own trials and sufferings. But who am I to change their life? Who am I to alleviate these sufferings? Hmmm... 

Maybe I can be the one who listens and understand? 

Walang makakapantay sa pakiramdam na may nakikinig at may nagpapahalaga sa mga bagay na sinasabi mo. 

or make them feel that they are not alone?

At ang pakiramdam na sa kabila ng pagsubok na pinagdadaan mo hindi ka nag-iisa, may mga taong nakakaunawa sayo.


I really don't know, but there's one thing I know for sure I am more than willing to share a piece of my life with them ... with you.

Taking Chances

I’ve been sitting here in my room the whole day, it feels like there is so much to be done but I don’t have the strength to do it, nope not now. Since I graduated from college and got my license I have been very restless, doing things back and forth and yet it feels like I’m not moving forward or maybe an inch or two from where I stand before. I know I am responsible for my life now and need not to worry about what other people might think, but the pressure inside my head is far greater than I had before. It makes me feel so helpless. And as these thoughts runs inside my head, a song from my playlist caught my attention “Taking Chances”.  Those words resonated in my head, yeah taking chances. Nope I’m not talking about the whole song just those two words, I was drifted away with so many questions in my head. How many chances did I ever had? Am I aware of it? Did a take any of it? Does it make my life any better? Any regrets from the past?

Life is a gamble we all know that, like in poker you win or lose, it’s just a matter of how you play your cards. Nothing in life is certain it’s all these confusing game of decision making, it’s hard but eventually you should make a move to continue playing. And when you throw your dice you can never take it back you just have to hope for the best.

They said Time is very essential, and as they look at me they kept on saying I’m wasting it. Yes! It’s true and it’s very frustrating and sometimes I feel like I passed several chances to win the game of life. I've been throwing the dice and kept on losing, kept on drawing the wrong cards. Did I ever have something good from these games? Yes? No?

Still I believe that everything happens for a reason and I hold on to that. And so I realized instead of whining about these loses I should be searching for these reasons and these chances that I know I should take and start to love my life the way it was and the way it is. 

The First Bubble

This is definitely not the "first", few years ago I have been creating several blogs here and there, trying to be so outspoken, so deep, so articulate. I suddenly grew tired of it, probably because I know deep down inside it's all just a show and that there is a point where all of the things that I'm trying to say are just a masquerade of what I want others to see. I am a Fraud.

Sometimes its hard to be the person you wish you could be and at the same time be someone who is happy with himself/herself. There is always this need to conform, to act like someone in order to feel like somehow you belong. This is my greatest mistake, I always pretend and just follow their flow. I let someone who loved and accepted me for who I am go because I deemed our relationship weird/unacceptable and pathetic and be with this people who see me indifferently. I was so lost back then, I kept my mouth shut, I'm not alone yet I'm so lonely.

Time goes by, people leave, people change. I left my old self to start anew, this time with more confidence and honesty. I don't care if I live under continuous scrutiny, I'm gonna be happy and be an inspiration to someone somehow. With this I blog, I would like to share my life, that is if i can keep it up.  xoxo